There are always days to go

Man, is it a fantastic day today… The sun has been illuminating the town all day, birds are singing to their hearts content and blossom is covering the ground as if a wedding party has just paraded past scattering beautiful hand crafted pieces of confetti. The world is celebrating the arrival of spring and it is glorious…

Recently I have been presented with an opportunity. An opportunity which, if accepted, will change everything for the next year or so. An opportunity so daunting and scary that it’s hard to think about for prolonged periods of time… An opportunity that doesn’t come often, and won’t come again anytime soon. An opportunity to give up my place at university – which I will be starting in September – to travel the globe for an entire year. One whole, glorious, year.

It’s a terrifying thought, to abandon all plans I’ve made so far, to just leave. But I have never been so prepared for something terrifying in my life. I feel like I’ve been dreaming for so long about going off and exploring with someone for so long that I just accepted that it was a dream, and something I may get around to doing someday. But suddenly someone looked me in the eyes and told me that I can do it, and I can do it soon… I was one of those moments that you didn’t ever expect to actually happen, but now it is happening and you just don’t know whether you’re brave enough to take the leap. This situation reminded me of that quote:

“When it feels scary to jump, that’s exactly when you jump. Otherwise you end up staying the same place your whole life, and I couldn’t do that” – J.C. Chandor (A most violent year)  

And re-reading that quote got me thinking back to a previous home of mine, where up on the black, chalkboard painted chimney breast, I had written quotes to myself. They were quotes that meant something, or touched a nerve… Quotes that inspired and saddened me, encouraged me to be courageous. I think maybe I should live up to some of them… 

I have some big decisions to make… 

Until next time. 

The eleutheromaniac 

“We all have one foot in a fairytale and the other in the abyss” Paulo Coelho – “Don’t be afraid, there are exquisite things in store for you. This is merely the beginning” Oscar Wilde
“They keep calling you a breeze because they’re frightened of what you might do when you discover you’re a hurricane” Salma Deere
“One of the greatest tragedies in life is to lose your own sense of self and accept the version of you that is expected by everyone else” K L Toth

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